NEED I SAY MORE?

I love it when we play fair and emerge triumphant and so do I love it when we play fair and lose.

Today, we lost with grace and dignity.

I'm still so proud of my team and my awesome captain and vice-captain. They have brought us so far.

This is the feeling that I've never ever had, not even in St Nicks when we were Champions.

I love ACHOCKEY.

And I love us even more when we accept the insults from others with a smile on our face.

So you think it's the dumbest game ever?

It may be, to you, but to us, you're the dumb one.

I love my team so much that I am even willing to die for them, every single one of them.

Do you have that in YOUR team?

MY TEAM is a team of awesome sisters and BFFL's that I can trust. My team picks each other up when we fall, pushes each other along when we slow down, encourages each other when we are on the verge of giving up, includes each other in every single thing that we do, cheers for each other so loudly that some of us may go hoarse. What can YOUR team do for you?

I liked the team talk today. Blue-slipped at 9.50 and bedtime till 11. Awesomeness. Food then ribbons time. I liked how we shared our own quotes, how we explained what it meant, how we wrote a word or phrase on our arm, how we presented it to each other, how we talked about sentimental issues and cried together, piling all our hands on Ms Lim's 2 pathetically skinny (but really muscular) hands, cheering together and the many many things we did today.

I like it because I can totally be myself in front of this team; I can speak without holding back because I have no fear of anyone backstabbing me. I like it because we really threw everything out and told each other how proud we are of each other, and how proud we are of being part of a team that has created history. I like it because I feel like I belong here. I like it because I have never had a feeling of wanting so strongly before. I like it because I love my team.

I won't say my team played their best today, although some of us really really did play our best but I'm sure all of us went ALL out. I'm just very glad that my team pressed on despite being 1 down, 2 down, 3 down and finally 4 down. I'm very proud of them because they fought hard even till the very last whistle. I am very proud of us, because we have come this far.

To me, the feeling I had today was so much more than the feeling I had for both the C'Div and B'Div finals combined. I wanted it so badly because this match wasn't only for us, it was for 8 groups of people: Dawn + Xueying, the teachers, the school, the seniors, the people who didn't make it in, the people who were benched out, us and the future of the team.

I'm just so proud of us that I don't really know what else to say because this is a team that I, honestly, feel that I actually fit in. I mean, as a keeper, I am usually left out by my own teammates because I don't train much with them and there's just something in them that wants to leave a keeper out but in AC, I feel like I'm included. Although I joined the team the latest, they still accepted me as one of them. I forged friendships with my fellow teammates and I feel that these friendships are really priceless.

Today, we faced the defending champions. We may have lost 4-0 but we lost with grace. We do not deny that the other team is fast and good in terms of skills and speed but we're not laggind behind by a lot. Today, most of us realised the importance of true sportsmanship. Today, we learnt that if we lose, we lose with grace, telling ourselves that it's because the opponent is better and it's not because we had no guts and if we win, we win humbly, giving credit to the other team, know that they have put up a good fight against us. We will never in any case play dirty to win or have our noses in the air, going around, talking bad about a team we have beaten or say make hurtful and insulting comments about them. In the true spirit of sportsmanship, we acknowledge every team we have played with, telling them that they have, too, put up a good fight.

To me, today, we have won the silver medal. We did not lose the gold, we just won the silver. Who cares about the colour of the medal when you have an awesome team? We won the silver and all you anal-sapiens out there who think that a silver medal is not good enough, may you fall down the stairs and sprain your ankle just before the important matches. The colour of the medal doesn't matter. Our medal may be silver, but we are already champions in our own ways. We are champions in our own hearts and that's all we need to know. What the others say doesn't really matter anymore. We have won in the true spirit of sportsmanship. I am proud of my team.

Yet today, I felt horribly ashamed. Apparently, someone from the opposing team told my teammate "This is the dumbest game ever,". A few weeks ago, she told me "You're in AC? I'm playing you. Don't worry, I won't try too hard." I wouldn't have felt so ashamed and disappointed if that person wasn't my ex-teammate. I feel horribly ashamed that I was once from the same team and fought the same fight with this particular person. Yes, I know your team has emerged champions, but being champions doesn't give you the right to make such comments to the others. Being champions mean that you have to acknowledge the other team for putting up a fight, thank them for the game that has brought you your championship title and all the more so NOT MAKE RUDE / INCONSIDERATE / HARSH / IMMATURE comments about the others. It was so painful to tell the rest of my team that you're my ex-teammate because I swear, SNHOCKEY has never taught us to be mean to the others. I have no idea where you learnt that from but yeah, if you want to insult my team / teammates, insult me first. I'd gladly appreciate it if you had kept these comments to yourselves, I don't think anyone would regard you as a mute.

If you, or anyone else makes such comments about my team again, I swear, I really really swear that I'll dent your face. I take the insults to the people around me personally. Get past me before you even open your mouth.

The spirit of mutated sportsmanship aside, I am really really glad to have been part of a team that has created history. I love ACHOCKEY!

Actually I'm not sad that I'll be the benchwarmer for A'Div since they already have Victoria and Hui Jun :-) At least I won't have to undergo all the stress all over.

I feel extremely happy that I'm getting light training although I feel bad for not joining them in their suffering. Stupid back problem's coming back again but oh well. I'd better go take up swimming so I can strengthen those core muscles :D

On second thoughts, I have no idea how I ended up in Hockey again, serious. I'd probably go join some random club CCA after season ends. At least I get to say I was part of the AWESOME team with the awesomest team spirit :D

I'm actually enjoying training since I'm just going there for sun-tan sessions :-)

Lurbbs. I'll most probably be getting a medal, for sitting on the bench :D Woots!

Please do something about your armpit hair.

Gross.

If I were to be the one who chose it, I should not be regretting.

But the thing is that I've never chosen it to be this way.

Cheeseballs, I never want to see you ever again.

You love to put the blame on me regardless I'm right or wrong. The world doesn't revolve around you and even if it does, I will be more than happy to go commit suicide than be at your beck and call. Why should I betray my soul?


If we were to care for the people around us just a little more, there wouldn't be such tragedies happening.

And I'm going to care more for the people around me, especially more so for the people who have been nice to me.

If you understand what happens when a giant comet hits the earth, I guess you'd understand how I feel.

Or maybe, I just feel completely relieved because I've finally broken free.

Liberation came early; not from O's, but from _.

I am happy.

Finally :-)

OHMYGOSH

YOU TWO ARE DISGUSTING.

If you're so fearful of every one knowing, then why do you even want to get involved in it?

And please, I didn't say anything about it. It was your 'best friend', or so you think she is. I guess more than 10 people not related to you directly knows it too. And I hate your apparent "best friend' for putting all the blame on me too.

Hmm, my fault? No.

Get your facts right first.

I shall not bother talking to you / helping you cause I'm wasting my time on a rotten friendship. I'm not being harsh because you were the one who said so first.

What do you do with things that are rotten? "Gosh, it's rotten, throw it away." That's what my Mom and Grandma will tell me.

I will throw IT away.

I have nothing to do with you from this moment onwards and I will try all means to get away and sever ties with you people.

Thanks for the bad memories. The good ones are all overwritten by all that you have done.

I am very disappointed in myself for being so poor in my judgment of people whom I call 'friends'. Sigh.

I tried to piece the messed up puzzle pieces together but just couldn't figure out what the original picture was.

I'm sorry that I messed it up.

I didn't know what got into me.

I promise to fix it back when I'm free and piece together a new puzzle for you.

I mean, I still feel guilty about it. I owe you a treat, promise!

I've moved :D Might be back for updates and this time, it's real.